Rest

"For if you love those who love you, what reward do you have? Do not even the tax collectors do the same? And if you greet only your brothers, what more are you doing than others? Do not even the Gentiles do the same? You therefore must be perfect, as your heavenly Father is perfect." ~Mathhew 5:46-48

Wow God! How amazing are you! Today I had my first OB exam and by the grace of his holiness, I made an 85. I knew that whatever would happen, it was because it was God's will. He is the one that keeps me sane. I've accomplished everything through Him.

Spring break starts on Friday at around 3pm, after I get off of clinicals. Melina, Shayle and Hayle are flying down on Sunday evening to spend the next 4-5 days with me. I'm looking forward to it because I haven't seen my sisters in about 3-4 months. I need some family time to help me get rejuvinated!

I haven't had much time to train for my races. Instead, I'm doing pilates and yoga. Getting my strength up and gaining more muscle. Once the university pool opens up, I will then start my swim training, so that I don't have to pay. And daylight savings time starts on Saturday, so that helps me with training in the evening.

I will ALWAYS praise Him!

The Heart of a Woman

Happy New Year! Yes, I know I'm a bit behind on my blog, but am here now, so what does it matter. I'm in the process of reading Captivating by John and Stasi Eldredge, which I do have to say is an amazing book. I wanted to post something from their book that hit me so strongly.

"....f0r the Scriptures tell us, the heart is central. 'Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life' (Prov. 4:23). Above all else. Why? Because God knows that our heart is core to who we are. It is the source of all our creativity, our courage and our convictions. It is the fountainhead of our faith, our hope, and of course our love. This 'wellspring of life' within us is the very essence of our existence, the center of our being. Your heart as a woman is the most important thing about you.

Think about it...God created you as a woman. 'God created man in his own image...male and female he created them' (Gen. 1:27). Whatever it means to bear God's image, you do so as a woman. Female. That's how and where you bear your image. Your feminine heart has been created with the greatest of all possible dignities-as a reflection of God's own heart. You are a woman to your soul, to the very core of your being. And so the journey to discover what God meant when he created woman in his image-when he created you as his woman-that journey begins with your heart. Another way of saying this is that the journey begins with desire. The desires that God has placed into our hearts are clues as to who we really are and the role that we are meant to play. Many of us have come to despise our desires or at least try to bury them. They have become a source of pain or shame. We are embarressed of them. But we don't need to be. The desires of our heart bear a great glory, because as we will detail further in the next chapter, they are precisely where we bear the image of God. We long for certain things because he does!

Look at the games that little girls play, and if you can, remember what you dreamed of as a little girl. Look at the movies women love. Listen to your own heart and the hearts of the women you know. What is it that a woman wants? What does she dream of? Think again of women like Tamar, Ruth, Rahab-not very 'churchy' women, but women held up for esteem in the Bible. We think you'll find that every woman in her heart of heart longs for 3 things: to be romanced, to play an irreplaceable role in a great adventure and to unveil beauty. That's what makes a woman come alive."

WOW!! Now you understand why. I would recommend this book to any woman out there. As I read in the book, I will continue to jot things down, to know what I need to post on here.



P.S.
Training has started back up again now that the holidays are over. Race day is April 11. Counting down, but will keep ya'll updated.

Have a blessed week!

Finally...

So Fall 2010 semester is officially over!! Woo hoo!! It really hasn't kicked in yet, but am looking forward to some down time. I told me friend today that these upcoming weeks, I can feel like doing nothing and not feel sorry about it. I do want to try and get a head start for the next semester classes, but that can wait a while.

Regarding training, I've been under the weather. Had a bad stomach virus again, and am still trying to recover from it. I've been lifting weights, but not much else, because I haven't felt up for anything. Been tired alot of all the late night study sessions, but tonight I can look forward to a good nights rest.

Now that school is over for a few weeks, I can just focus on work and makin' some money. I'm not going home until December 23, but for those 2 weeks of being in Dallas, I'm going to soak it all up!!

Hit a Road Block...

Training has been going very well. Slow at times from work and school, but I continue to trot along. This past week, I've been feeling somewhat down...just tired! Well it all caught up to me on Tuesday morning, I didn't go to class because my throat was hurting so bad. Went to the doc on Wednesday and she just told me to take it easy for the next few days. Yesterday, it hit me hard..stomach flu and the regular flu all at once. A double whammy! But I'm feeling somewhat better today; I was able to get out of bed and go lay on the couch (huge progress) and I'm not coughing as much.

I'm thinking though it was my body's way of telling me to slow it down just a bit. Which I will, because I hate to feel the way I do.

More posts to come..

And so it begins...

"For nothing is impossible with God." ~ Luke 1:37

So I must say that I'm so blessed with the people God has placed in my life. I received my first check in the mail yesterday, for my fundraising efforts for the half-ironman. A special thanks goes out to Melissa, for being so generous.

So training has been coming along quite well. I have been keeping a nutrition log about what I eat throughout the day, and I can honestly say that I don't eat as bad as I think. Yes, on occasion like yesterday, I did throw in the powdered donuts, but mainly I've been doing pretty good. With training though, I've been doing baseline work, meaning I've been keeping my heart rate (HR) within special limits; 120-125. I can tell a difference on the bike, because I was able to keep a steady pace of 16-17mph and was able to do about 13 miles in 45 minutes, which is a huge improvement for me! Praise Jesus for this.

I'm taking a strength training class for school, and this should help me build up the muscles that are lacking. I can tell a difference in my legs for sure, more toned! :)

Keep looking back for more updates! God Bless!!

Here we go yet again...

So, I've decided that I'm going to start training again for another triathlon; a half-ironman to be exact. Memorial Hermann Ironman 70.3 Texas on April 11, 2011! Cy is going to be my coach, and I've got him at no charge. I'm going to keep updating on here, for anyone that cares. :)

Going in All Directions

"The Lord rewards every man for his righteousness and faithfulness." 1 Samuel 26:23

I'm starting to be doubtful again with him. I've been giving him some days to think or just get his thoughts together before I get in touch with him. Last week, I had texted him just to see whats up and I never got a reply back. About a week and a half later, I received a phone call, but I was in class, so no answer there. I called him back yesterday, and left a message. But yet today at 8:15pm, still no phone call.

Is it supposed to be so hard on me emotionally and mentally? Can he not be man enough to not lead me on and just be upfront with me about everything. I have so many feelings for him and I constantly feel like I'm getting dropped but yet I keep forgiving him and letting him back into my life. Why do I let this happen so much? Let myself put my feelings out in the open and there's not a response back. Oh and if there is a response, its on his time, like weeks behind of when all this happens. Why Lord? Why is all this happening? Are you allowing this? Are you trying to teach me a lesson?

Lord, I'm so lost. I don't know which direction to go into. I feel like I'm in this all alone. Please come rescue me and my feelings. Allow me to see straight. Take all these emotions out and allow me to see and feel your mercy! Lord, I need you. Take my mind off him and allow it to go to useful things. You WILL will happen. Everything is going to work out the way you allow it to happen. You've got this messy situation. Please protect my heart and feelings if this isn't going to work out.

I've given this to you!